kazatasupa

Closing out the day... and feeling alone.

I went for a walk this evening, waiting on the snow... and I took my camera with me to take photos of the town. It took me 45 minutes to walk from to one end, down to the other and back to my parent's house. Small town blues. I took a photo of my parent's house, the old shoe store, the Alpine Drive In, Burney Bowl and... well, that's about it. I was amazed at how many people were actually at the bowling alley and how few people were elsewhere.

I saw Dan and Anna cruising main street, just as I had left them over six years ago. They didn't stop, I didn't waive... just kept going our separate ways. That makes me sad... I guess. They're two of my favorite people and I see them most years I am out here, but this year... I don't know.

I remember when they were pulled over by a police officer, naked from the waste down with their underwear on their heads...

I wish I had someone to have legs all over. Just to hear a giggle... or a breath. And, maybe a warm hand with an extra squeeze...

I feel great this morning. A rarity, indeed... it's so refreshing. I woke early so I could walk for coffee. Candice and Ryan were working (I guess they always work Monday mornings). Chief was there... sitting in the corner, drinking his coffee. I like him, even though we have only had small, passing conversations (on forming a drinking olympics for drunks). Chris and his son, Phen (spelling), were there too. I like running into familiar faces. It's comforting sometimes, like this morning. As I was walking back to my apartment, my roommate (who was driving to get coffee on his way to work) pulled to the side of the road. "Don't you have to work at eight?" "Yea," I replied. "So, you walk to get coffee... then walk back home to drive to work?" I just looked at him. He shrugged his shoulders, commented on how weird it seemed to him and drove off. I'M TIRED OF BEING A LAZY ASSHOLE! Of course I didn't say a thing to him... it's really none of his business. I like walking. It's a little thing, but it does help me put life into perspective. Slow down... slow down. I'm small and that makes me happy.