Thoughts

[kazatasupa]

Something I've been thinking about:

What is your UTOPIA?...
"Mine is simple in theory but difficult in practice.
A life of moderation,
the ability to express myself without being
misunderstood.
Beautiful people as friends, a beautiful lover,
and a sense of growth
with constant opportunity for accomplishment."

This was an answer in reply to a question that ryn had for me last November. I've been spending a lot of time the last week, hoofing it about town - thinking about life. And, on one of those walks (coupled with an evening of sifting through a few personal items), I realized that my life is completely out of balance because I have closed all opportunities for growth, accomplishment and expression. I've become lazy and have not been practicing a moderate lifestyle (only forced poverty) - and that is why I have felt so out of it (almost depressed).

I believe I have a few beautiful friends... and ryn... oh, ryn is so beautiful to me.

But, everything is out of balance. I can't have that any more. I refuse.

Comments

[lokasenna.livejournal.com]

<< I realized that my life is completely out of balance because I have closed all opportunities for growth, accomplishment and expression. I've become lazy and have not been practicing a moderate lifestyle (only forced poverty) - and that is why I have felt so out of it (almost depressed).

But, everything is out of balance. I can't have that any more. I refuse. >>

And here, you've pegged a lot of my dilemnas all in one entry. You really shouldn't have felt obligated to hide this entry with a link.
It's kind of funny Matt. I realized over the last few years we've never been more alike in the past than more recently in these last few years.
I like that. Very much. I love you bro.

[kazatasupa.livejournal.com]

I used the lj cut to see how it worked, then forgot to remove it.

I too have noticed the similar direction which you and I have grown... and, in many ways, I have found tremendous comfort and joy in that growth. I am also very fond of our differences... You are an amazing person, and I am very proud of you as my brother. You help make my life glow, thorn... you are one of the beautiful people. I love you.

I hear ya

[freakzoo.livejournal.com]

It's easier said than done, take it from me. For example, I have had the dream of publishing my fiction since I was in the sixth grade. Here I am 24 freaking years old and guess what? I haven't even finished any of the myriad of plots I've got upstairs in the old brainpan. I feel the same way you do. In fact, I was thinking just today that my life stagnates. That seems like the perfect word for it. You're not alone, good buddy. It's okay though, we'll find our way out. Hang in there.