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my boss would like me to start a major digitizing project with our special collections. this would mean a lot of equipment, training, and time. might be something i'd enjoy doing...

as it is now, i can't stop listening to with love

(mp3 download, not streamlined)

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you've heard it before: patience is a virtue.

it's the anxiety of not knowing that's killing me. webmd hasn't helped any, but curiosity keeps me logged on, tuned in and searching. and, i am concerned. i don't want to be unhealthy. i don't want to be sick and i definately am not ready to die. i want to know what's wrong with me, i want to adapt and move onward.

and, inside of my unknown, exists the possability that i am, medically speaking, healthy. i'm not sure that something is wrong, but do know that i have a high tolerance for pain and have a tendancy to not listen to my body. i always operate under the belief that pain, or sickness is in my head - that i'm fabricating what i feel, just by thinking about it. that's why it has taken me almost 2 years of not feeling well to see the doctor.

patience... everything will be okay.

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dead voices on the stereo. it's funny that way, how we can reach back and let a past soul touch us.

nicole wrote me yesterday:

"This time of uncertainty is a great opportunity for growth. You will learn what is important in life, and how much people and things mean to you. If you need anyone to talk to, I think I am the perfect person, I know the anxiety of the unknown, so call me if you want. I love you and hope you aren't worrying yourself sick."

i'll call her in the morning.

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chris and jane, little fin, biloba and myself wandered the east side beach of utah lake this evening as the sun set. fin rode to and from on my lap...

i'lli have pictures that i'll post sometime next week.