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Sep. 28th, 2002 04:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kazatasupayou've heard it before: patience is a virtue.
it's the anxiety of not knowing that's killing me. webmd hasn't helped any, but curiosity keeps me logged on, tuned in and searching. and, i am concerned. i don't want to be unhealthy. i don't want to be sick and i definately am not ready to die. i want to know what's wrong with me, i want to adapt and move onward.
and, inside of my unknown, exists the possability that i am, medically speaking, healthy. i'm not sure that something is wrong, but do know that i have a high tolerance for pain and have a tendancy to not listen to my body. i always operate under the belief that pain, or sickness is in my head - that i'm fabricating what i feel, just by thinking about it. that's why it has taken me almost 2 years of not feeling well to see the doctor.
patience... everything will be okay.
it's the anxiety of not knowing that's killing me. webmd hasn't helped any, but curiosity keeps me logged on, tuned in and searching. and, i am concerned. i don't want to be unhealthy. i don't want to be sick and i definately am not ready to die. i want to know what's wrong with me, i want to adapt and move onward.
and, inside of my unknown, exists the possability that i am, medically speaking, healthy. i'm not sure that something is wrong, but do know that i have a high tolerance for pain and have a tendancy to not listen to my body. i always operate under the belief that pain, or sickness is in my head - that i'm fabricating what i feel, just by thinking about it. that's why it has taken me almost 2 years of not feeling well to see the doctor.
patience... everything will be okay.
