saturday/sunday

[kazatasupa]

I'm having trouble writing anything in detail. I guess I'm not interested, really... however, here's a list of things I did followed by things I thought.

Did:
Woke Saturday slightly hung-over
Ran into biloba at Juice and Java
Had coffee
Drove to Salt Lake City
Had more coffee at Salt Lake Coffee Break
Got bored
Called Nicole
Hung out for a couple hours
Had lunch w/ Nicole
Left Nicole, met up with Jared and Ryan
Went to Utah Arts Festival
Ran into Jason
Left festival after 3 hours and went to Jason's house
Drank beer, had dinner
Took Trax down to Port O Call
Drank a lot of beer and dance to 2 and 1/2 White Guys
Watched Jason hit on many, many girls
Walked back towards Jason's house.
Jason, in a drunken stupor, started running
When I got to Jason's house, he was no where to be found
After waiting for 20 minutes, I broke into his house through the kitchen window, took a shower and went to bed.
Sometime during the night I heard Jason come in.
Woke late Sunday morning
Realized that I had spent over 80 dollars in the bar the night before.
Found out that Jason passed out in someone's front yard.
Went back to Salt Lake Coffee Break for coffee
Drove home.
Went to bed really early.

Thoughts:
People are selfish
I absolutely hate sexually abusive people
I don't believe in love
I don't trust people
I loathe the way people act in bars
I really like dancing drunk
I have little, if any hope that the world will turn out as I wish it could.
I like girls who work in coffee shops
I can see age in my face
I'm scared

Comments

[xaotica.livejournal.com]

I don't believe in love

at this point in my life, i think the whole point of love
if that you suffer
and suffer
and suffer
and suffer
and things fucking suck
and you get really comfortable in that

and you start to be somewhat happy in it
and learn to live with it
maybe even really happy

then life says "wait a minute. you're getting too cocky"

then you fall in love

and all of a sudden you're right back where you started again
and you have no idea how to handle anything
and every day is completely new and fresh
and confusing.

so i do think it exists,
but only to throw a cog in our machines.
*smile*

but i'm glad it throws that cog
and i think it'll hit you at some point
even if you're ducking and screaming NO NO NO
with your hands up above your face to block it

Re:

[kazatasupa.livejournal.com]

i think that you're right. and, it's so cyclical too... almost impossible to avoid (although, when it happens, i have trouble wanting ot avoid it).