<< I realized that my life is completely out of balance because I have closed all opportunities for growth, accomplishment and expression. I've become lazy and have not been practicing a moderate lifestyle (only forced poverty) - and that is why I have felt so out of it (almost depressed).

But, everything is out of balance. I can't have that any more. I refuse. >>

And here, you've pegged a lot of my dilemnas all in one entry. You really shouldn't have felt obligated to hide this entry with a link.
It's kind of funny Matt. I realized over the last few years we've never been more alike in the past than more recently in these last few years.
I like that. Very much. I love you bro.