kazatasupa: (fatherson)
It's been tough falling asleep the last four or five evenings due to a troubled mind. And, despite lying awake late into the night, I still wake up early (even on the weekends)... I've hit a point today where I just want to sleep for days, but am not sure I'll be able to get that rest. I'm supposed to go to SLC this evening to see a free concert, but am really not up to it. I'm tired, cranky and would rather be alone.

That being said, life hasn't been too bad. I have been able to throw a ton of junk away from around my work space and am almost feeling comfortable enough to stretch.

Ahhh...

Using

May. 23rd, 2002 04:19 pm
kazatasupa: (fatherson)
A new client: LochJournal.

It seems pretty interesting. I don't know how to do spell check. This could be dangerous...

In other news... I'm having trouble with sleep again and am emotionally beat. I hate being me sometimes...
kazatasupa: (fatherson)
Hmmm...

Look at me : Cranky Boy.

Yes, I had a hard time sleeping last night. I should stop this moodiness... I'm going home.

wish

Apr. 24th, 2002 12:04 pm
kazatasupa: (fatherson)
It has occured to me that all the best thinking is done at night, while I am bouncing around the bed, trying to fall asleep. My mind keeps going, and going, and going....

I'm wide awake now, but my brain is dead.

Damn.
kazatasupa: (fatherson)
I hate this. I really do...

In case the reader is not aware, I do not have internet access at home. I have to come to work (a library) to get online. This is what happens when I have insomnia... I come to work, to let my roommate sleep while I fidget with things. I should have brought my guitar with me. I tried to finish taxes for my brother and myself (and almost have) but need one more piece of info to complete his... and just need to mail my state in.

That's it... that's all I have to say. Back to fidgeting.

Depression

Mar. 29th, 2002 11:44 am
kazatasupa: (burney mountain)
These mood swings are draining...

I can't shake it. And, yesterday I felt almost fine... today, I feel physically removed from the world. Invisible, irritable and worthless. I can't touch things, or people... I can barely see them. I haven't the energy to force myself inside. Feeling isolated... and I don't want company.

I'm tired and not able to sleep.

I'm stressed and my stomach is in knots. I've tried to eat, to dull the pain... but, it feels like my intestines are constricting all my vital organs (is that possible?)

I'm going to give myself a hug.

Ahhh...
kazatasupa: (burney mountain)
I couldn't fucking sleep again. This is all too strange... My mind wasn't that active... and, I thought I was exhausted. I just had long, frustrating fits of restlessness. I was too tired to get out of bed, and it was too cold to think about removing myself from the comfort of my warm blankets.

I've never actually suffered from any form of insomnia before. I'm a good sleeper, really I am.

I have to thank Lokassena for his post... I'll get back to you when I have energy to think and write.

That's it...

I'm tired.

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